I am so sorry for being such a
lazybones lately. It turns out that I actually can’t do all the
things all the
time. The past couple of months have been quite busy, and as a result, I’ve
neglected this beautiful space. I apologize for that. I have so missed you! And
this is so true.
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| It's disappointing to feel sad for no reason :( |
How have I been today?
Sad sad sad and sad …
Some people have a genuine
reason to feel depressed, but not me. I just woke up today feeling sad and weak
for absolutely no reason.
Truy, It's disappointing to
feel sad for no reason. Sadness can be almost pleasantly indulgent when you
have a way to justify it , you can listen to sad music and imagine yourself as
the protagonist in a impressive movie.
But my sadness didn't have a
purpose. Listening to sad music and
imagining that my life was a movie just made me feel kind of weird because I
couldn't really get behind the idea of a movie where the character is sad for
no reason.
Standing around feeling sorry
for myself was momentarily exciting, but I grew tired of it quickly. "That
will do," I thought. "I've had my fun, let's move on to something
else now." But the sadness didn't go away.
I tried to force myself to not
be sad… it dint work again…
All I want to do is go home,
stay on the couch all the day and not do anything other than internet things.
This may have something to do with my nerdiness. :D
But, since I was depressed,
this method was less inspirational and more just a way to dominate myself with
hatred.
I turned back and saw piles of
papers to be corrected.
I don’t want to correct the papers, because I am sad says my stubborn mind! But
I need to do them, says my weedy heart…
What did I do next?
I followed my heart! :D :D
I turned on the music; put on the headphone
and listened to the fast-paced music and music energized me, music gave me the
energy that I need to achieve the task, and make it seem as if time passes
quicker. :D
Within no time, sadness
evaporated <3
Task competed! yAAy!!!
I smiled the widest! J
And finally I opened a blog to tell you how my sadness turn out to be a happiness within a microscopic
duration :D and the impact of music. Its powerful!
I wish I could tell you that
I’m back and that Living on Love will be lively and updated on the regular, but
I just don’t know. I do have some exciting program coming up and a few other
ideas up my sleeve, so I won’t be completely absent. For now, I’m just trying
to survive and figure out how to do it all. (How’s that for honesty, ummm?!) You
can certainly stay in touch via facebook, instagram and weChat… It’s my
favorite and I can’t seem to let it go :D :D
Love you all!
Thanks for checking in and
keeping up!
Xoxo...<3 <3
